Friday, March 27, 2009

Deathly shy

When I was a kid up until the age of about 12 I was that weird shy kid you never want to make eye contact with. Seriously it was bad. I mean I had my close friends who really knew that I wasn't truly the weird shy kid I was at school but everyone else knew me as shy Ashley. I always made great grades and did my work so the only problem my teachers had with me was that I didn't talk much. How could that not like that though? Geez! I remember once during open house my parents were asked by a teacher of mine if I was mute...seriously?! Rewind a bit...when I was 3 my mom enrolled me in this dance school in hopes of helping me come out of my shell. Well that plan FAILED and it made me crawl further into that imaginary shell. I went to the same elementary from K - 6th and the summer before 7th grade we decided to move across town. I was devastated. All that hard work of actually making friends just down the drain. So being the great parents that they are they said Ash ya know what if you don't mind getting up a little early we don't mind driving you to school across town so you can be with your friends. I was stoked! Even though the junior high with my friends had uniforms, I just wanted to be there with my friends. So...summer flew by and my mom had even bought my uniforms and such. 2 weeks before school something hit me...why the hell would I want to get up early just to go to school to be with friends that I may not see every class or at all throughout the day. So I sheepishly went into my parents room and had a serious conversation with them. I asked if they would be mad if I decided to go to Bailey Junior High, the junior high right by the house, the junior high my dad went to, and the junior high where I would meet the greatest friends I could ever have met. They joyously agreed with decision and the rest is history. So I stared at Bailey two weeks later and had absolutely no friends at all. I knew one girl from a soccer camp but we weren't even friends just aquaintances. So I had to reluctantly crawl out of that shell and test the waters. So...I was shy and weird...now I'm outgoing and weird. Haha there's no changing weird. I'm thankful for that weird and awkward stage in my life. It has helped me approach situations with not so outgoing people in a very easy going non abrassive manner. Now, admittedly, my outgoing personality has got me into trouble on many occasions, but I am just thankful I can actually talk to a person one on one now without nearly having a panic attack. I'm not exactly sure why I decided to share this small tidbit of my life but it's my blog and I can do what I want lol. A lot is going on right now and I can't complain about anything so I could blog about all the things I've done lately and about the cruise I went on but I don't feel like getting carried away and I'm at work... Later gators.

3 comments:

A "cheery" disposition said...

I use to be very too! I have opened out of my shell at lot more lately... the older I get the more louder I get.

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Jen said...

Man, I really REALLY wish I could have grown out of my shyness...but I think some people just can't seem to do that. At least I'm not as self-conscious though. That's a good thing! :-)