New Life

I'm in the midst of madness yet I feel perfectly calm and collected. I look to the sky and I feel free and balanced. My life has begun...again. I'm 25 and I've faced a lot of hard times and I've never taken time to evaluate who I am and where I want to go. I used to concentrate on the present and dwell on the past yet I rarely gave myself goals to attain in the future. I may have thought about them but I never took the steps to make those goals happen. It's almost as if I just thought they would happen. Like I could speak them into completion. I had a problem when I first started struggling in college where I would avoid reality. That I was actually struggling yet I was too prideful to step up and study more or seek supplemental instruction. I just thought that it was going to be handed to me. I was a straight A student in high school I studied but not as much that's required in college. I wasn't ill-prepared by any means but somewhere between the age of 18 and 19 I lost the initiative to step up and do things. I started to just exist and not be me and I became extremely detached. There is a lot in between that I don't really want to dive into all of that but basically it's been awhile since I've truly evaluated myself. Right now I'm finally doing that and it feels good because I surprisingly like what I see and realize I have infinitely more to offer than I've ever been given credit for. So here I am...same old me with a new perspective and cleared eyes to see the world with.