As I sat there pondering whether or not to clean the chaos that is our newly acquired room, I realized something about myself. I am Grade A, First Class Procrastinator. I wouldn't go as far to say that I'm lazy I just prefer to procrastinate. It's sad really and this desire to procrastinate has grown the older I get. Eh...I'll get to it tomorrow my mind thinks...tomorrow rolls along and I still have no desire to clean the damn thing. It's quite the sight though let me tell ya...we have an entire houseful of stuff in one room. Now granted this room is the size of a studio apartment but still not enough space for the stuff we acquired in just 3 months...but it'll do for now and we don't have to pay rent for a while. Yay! As changes are made and the holidays approach I find myself contemplating many things. When will Ryan and I have kids, what will their names be, will we have enough money and be successful, why is this economy sucking...and this list goes on and on. If I start to dwell I'm pretty good about getting my mind out of the rut and thinking about happy things like ponies and butterflies...ok fine maybe not ponies and butterflies but you catch my drift eh? I'm sitting here at work...somewhere I would rather not be at the moment and I just had one of those awkward eye contact moments. I looked up from my cube at the exact moment one of the managers was walking bye and we awkwardly made eye contact with no words spoken. Now I don't find myself in awkward moments but this was one of them and I hate that nothing was said. I mean I could have broken the silent eye contact with hey pal how's it going...but what if he replied shitty and I don't want to talk about it. That would just intensify the awkwardness. So I remained silent and waited as he passed...lame. Have you ever had those? I also giggle at awkward scenes in movies. Well I mean I giggle about everything but that's one of the many things I uncontrollably giggle about. So my friend T is searching for a long lost friend and I'm hoping to help find this friend. She's so wonderful. Have you ever just had that one friend that you can't live a day without...she's that friend for me. I know I've blogged about her before but I just wanted to reiterrate what a pal she is :-). This is for you T..."Hey boy whatsho name?". hahaha Well I guess I better get back to the daily grind. At least I have a job though which is saying a lot right now in this crap ass economy. I live you with this quote I found somewhere a while back "Live simply, Love generously, Care deeply, Speak kindly". Later gators.

Our baby!

This is DJ. She is our new 8 1/2 month old sweet sweet baby girl! She's labrador retriever and something else mix...Ryan thinks Collie...but she could be a number of things. Either way she's a sweet as can be and loves to love. Her first day with us was a little rough because she was throwing up and unable to drink water and was restless, but today she's had a full day and she's soooo tired now. She keeps walking in here as I'm typing wondering what I'm doing and just plopped down beside the chair. She is so cute and very well mannered. She's a little afraid of the backyard now because the big scary german shepherd next door keeps barking at her. She'll get over it though.

So today has been spent with getting DJ used to everything and visiting with my family and Ryan's. They love her so much. So my maternal instincts kicked in last night and I didn't sleep too well because I kept checking on her and making sure she was ok. She did well through the night and slept at the end of our bed all night. We're so happy and she's happy as well. So I had a moment today to myself as I sat on the back porch and soaked in the beautiful weather and my surroundings. I love fall in texas...if only it could be this mild all year round...but I guess if I'm looking for that kind of weather I should move to Hawaii, but I'm not the slow-going pot smoking type like some on the island are. Anyway, I'm starting to get worried about the economy and what will start happening when we crash...I say when because it doesn't seem like the U.S. is going anywhere but down. I hope it gets better though. Anywho...Ryan has an interview on Monday morning!! It's with a wood company near my work and the position has plenty room for growth and a healthy starting income as well. I'm praying all goes well. Good luck Ryno!!

So my bro and his good friend Kenzie are over spending the night tonight. They're playing Playstation 3 of course but they're having a good time. I'm a little worried about my bro though...he's turning out like my dad...I mean my dad is a wonderful man but he's not very ambitious and I just don't want my bro to turn out like that. I think with good friends, if he doesn't lose them, he will turn out ambitious and will go to college and all that jazz. He's only 13 so he has plenty time to grow up and change.

So...it's so weird how things work out...and how things don't. I got a call from my ex's sister yesterday. She has 2 wedding gifts from my ex's mom to give me and she wants to come deliver them to me soon. Typically a call from my past would jolt me and bring back bad memories but I'm a stronger woman than I once was so I'm managing quite well. I need to call her tomorrow so she can finally bring those gifts over.

I'm so ready for a lot of changes financially. I really REALLY hope to get my car refinanced soon to get my ex's name off the title. It'll be nice not to have that connection anymore to my past. I'm not saying my past was entirely awful but I was a totally different person and I never want to be that way again. Moving on...

I'm not feeling so well right now so I better go get some rest before I get any worse. I hope you all, whoever reads this, is having a great day. Nighty night sleep tight...

Stacked Actors

I had to share this picture. It's one of my favorties from our wedding. Don't judge my lack of jumping abilities...it's the little extra poundage I've put on lol actually I think I jumped way before the picture was taken and this was me landing. Anywho, our wedding was spectacular...I could not have imagined a better day. I know I've already said that in a previous blog but I was just thinking about how AWESOME it turned out. Thanks mom!!

So I just got done mowing the grass. Ryan cuts the front yard but I cut the back yard...he's allergic to the grass back there. We've accomplished a lot today but had to give up our behind bullpen tickets to the rangers game to do so. Pre moving in/marriage we would have NEVER given up a chance to see the Rangers but your priorities change instantaneously when you get married. It is for the best though because I hate mid-week cleaning. So I have been listening to an older Foo Fighters song and re-fell in love with that song "Stacked Actors"...it's hilarious! Check it out yo. ha. So I've been reading a friend of mine's blog and I'm really excited for his recent move to South Korea to teach english. It's a goal of mine to experience another culture whether that be in another state or country so I've been really intrigued to hear about his experiences. Best of luck B! Ok well I better jump in the shower and get ready for some FOOTBALL! GO COWBOYS! Jared's coming over in a bit...he just got out of the Marines after serving two terms in Iraq. Ok well I'm out for now...see ya later gators!