Wow...

I didn't realize how long it had been since I posted. I guess when life happens certain other things tend not to happen. Like blogging. So much has happened. I'm a little uneasy to talk about the specifics of the happenings but I'm doing alright I'm in a great new job and I'm looking up with clear eyes. For the first time in my life I'm evaluating me and my goals and my outlook and who I am, etc. It feels amazing. I'm scared yes admittedly but I know that I have a huge support system and am just taking baby steps right now. Ok well just wanted to stop in and for those of you who read this let you know I'm just fine. I'll be back soon I promise :-)

So ya hey blog

So many things going on. Like life. I'm sorry I've abandoned you dear blog you've unfortunately never been a focus but here I am to apologize and shake hands and maybe even chest bump...no? Alright. I'm sitting here watching American Idol and seeing these people try to make something of themself and they aren't perfect but they put themself out there for criticism and they manage. This is something I've never been good at. I've always taken things personally and became defensive. I guess with age and with certain experiences comes growth and change. I recently found out that I have until the end of the month to find a new job. I'm being laid-off. My company is merging with another and they are "phasing" my position out and so I've had to sit at my desk still working feverishly and deal with this shit. Excuse me but shit felt good to say lol. I've been there 3 years and I work in the coolest place, for me anyway and I'm trying to deal with all of the changes this means. I'm also smack dab in the middle of a divorce after not even 2 years of marriage and so even though this may seem like a black hole that I'm living in I've been surprisingly positive. No, not in every moment but in most moments. I've already had 1 interview and another one on Thursday. I've never been less appreciated than I have been at my job that's laying me off. So I know this means great things for me. I work hard I am on time I don't complain I just am me and do my thing. So to those who don't appreciate that well...good riddance. So here I am blog. A new me, a me faced with a bunch of unwanted things, but things that will make me strong and free. I know I don't have a lot of followers on this thing so to those of you who read...thanks for reading. Sorry it's been awhile. Hope all is well. Peace out for now friends.